NSTASIA – Belong to You
I just like this song. It sweet and sad and I don’t really know what to feel right now.
There are still the same good things in my life as there was on Thursday when I reflected everything to my new counselor. Then on Saturday morning I had a 2 hour coffee break with Cassie, Saturday afternoon my sister came up to visit and we actually had a really fun time downtown, and finished that night with a lovely date and another with him planned for later this week.
I still have all my lessons set for tomorrow and a beginning Spanish class at our community college starting tomorrow night.
But, tomorrow night and Tuesday morning are the 8 year anniversary days of my first rape. It’s the first year I’ve been able to talk openly about those hours and the first year I’ve really acknowledged how destructive it’s been in my life.
Like I said, I have a busy day planned for tomorrow. Tuesday is less busy and I’m unsure how I’ll feel or how much of an impact it will really have on my day. I don’t know and I don’t know what to think or feel right now.